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Traditionally, you are challenged by the action oriented Aries Moon, for it doesn't allow you to sit quietly long enough to process your feelings. You may be a bit uptight about being coerced into action. Don't be overly concerned; you will feel less stressed once you get going. Just remember to reserve your right to have an emotional meltdown along the way.Wednesday, November 29, 2006 'I could have lost myself
In rough blue waters in your eyes,
And I miss you still' calling out winter bye bobby, |
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“Potential for greatness may be encoded in the genes, but whether that potential is realized as a gift for mathematics, say, or a brilliant criminal mind depends on patterns etched by experience in those critical early years.” (Karpowitz 1997) |
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It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. And this bag was, like, dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. And that's the day I knew there was this entire life behind things, and... this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video's a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember... and I need to remember... Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in. I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all, it stretches on forever, like an ocean of time... For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp, watching falling stars... And yellow leaves, from the maple trees, that lined my street... Or my grandmother's hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper... And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird... And Janie... And Janie... And... Carolyn. I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life... You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday. |
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while sitting here doing homework(or obviously not, cause i'm writing this), i miss him. a strange sensation. there was something motivating about him, maybe it was because i didn't want to be like him, i'm not sure, but i got my shit done, and now i'm sitting here procrastinating instead. it's the second time today that i've missed him. sarah's away and the apartment is so empty. with ry it was OUR apartment. and with this one it's karen and sarah's apartment. see the difference? i feel so out of control. i feel so lost. i guess this is what it feels like to move on. maybe i'm finally coming to terms with what has happened. i just feel like sucha mess. i don't want to do anything except drink with my friends and ignore all my responsibilites. or maybe it's that i want to clean up and facing reality is scaring me so much that i'm sweeping it all under the carpet. it's different when you have to face yourself in the morning. but i miss having someone to come home to, someone to fight with, someone to want to get away from. looking at it that way, it's rather disturbing. i apoligize for my scattered thoughts. i never knew that i could truly be affected. i miss having someone to be inspired by my actions. i miss having someone that i want to inspire. i don't think there were many that inspired me. i miss first semester when i felt passion for what i was learning. this strike has screwed us all up. i hate having to be the strong one. or maybe it's that i want to avoid facing the rising stress levels, cause now i'm forced to feel it too. own up to my actions, or lack there of. 2 weeks. then where will i be?
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strength, courage and wisdominside my head there lives a dream that i want to see in the sun behind my eyes there lives a me that i've been hiding for much too long 'cause i've been, too afraid to let it show 'cause i'm scared of the judgement that may follow always putting off my living for tomorrow it's time to step out out on faith, i've gotta show my faith it's been illusive for so long, but freedom is mine todayi've gotta step out on faith, it's time to show my faith procrastination had me down but look at what i have found, i found strength, courage and wisdom it's been inside of me all along, strength, courage and wisdom inside of me behind my pride there lives a me, that knows humility inside my voice there is a soul, and in my soul there is a voice but i've been, too afraid to make a choice 'cause i'm scared of the things that i might be missing running to fast to stop and listen it's time to step out on faith, i've gotta show my faith it's been illusive for so long, but freedom is mine today i've gotta step out on faith it's time to show my faith procrastination had me down but look what i have found, i found strength, courage and wisdom and it's been inside of me all along, strength, courage and wisdom inside of me i close my eyes and i think of all the things that i want to see 'cause i know, now that i've opened up my heart i know that anything i want can be, so let it be, so let it be..
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to zion: lauren hill | |
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i don't like when boys give me jewlery as a way of saying 'i belong to you'. almost like a chain around my neck holding me back.
commitment makes me wanna vomit |
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True Friendship Are you tired of those sissy-ass "friendship" poems that always
sound good, but never actually come close to reality? Well, here
is a series of promises that actually speak of true
friendship: 1. When you are sad -- I will help you get drunk and plot revenge
against the sorry bastard who made you sad.
2. When you are blue -- I will try to dislodge whatever is choking
you. 3. When you smile -- I will know you finally got laid. 4. When you are scared -- I will rag on you about it every chance
I get.
5. When you are worried -- I will tell you horrible stories about
how much worse it could be until you quit whining.
6. When you are confused -- I will use little words. 7. When you are sick -- Stay the hell away from me until you are
well again. I don't want whatever you have. 8. When you fall -- I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass. 9. This is my oath..... I pledge it to the end. "Why?"
you may ask; "because you are my friend". Remember.......A good friend will help you move.....a REALLY good
friend will help you move a body.......let me know if you
ever need me to bring a
shovel. Friendship is like peeing your pants, everyone can see it, but only you can feel the true warmth. ps. i bought a polariod land camera for four dollars!!!!! need for film!!! |
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colleges on strike. i'm not really sure how i feel about this. so, as i'm missing my kids de invited me to spend the day with hers.
i LOVE grade one! although i'd have to agree with de that the neediness would get to me. i still have the problem where i'm more like a friend with them then a teacher. in other news, i aced my workshop. there was no need for a raincoat when reading my teacher's commentary. thank god for small things. a box of crayons can take u far... while walking in a toy store
the day before today
i overheard a crayon box
with many things to say. "i don't like red!" said yellow.
and green said, "nor do i!
and no one here likes orange,
but no one knows quite why." "we are a box of crayons
that really doesn't get along,"
said blue to all the others
"something here is wrong!" well i bought that box of crayons
and took it home with me
and laid out all the crayons
so the crayons could all see. they watched me as i coloured
with red and blue and green
and black and white and orange
and every colour inbetween. they watched as green
became the grass
and blue became the sky.
the yellow sun was shining bright
on the white clouds drifing by. colours changing as they touched,
becoming something new.
they watched me as i coloured.
they watched till i was through. and when i'd finally finished,
i began to walk away
and as i did the crayon box
had something more to say... "i do like red!" said the yellow
and green said, "so do i!"
"and blue u are terrific
so high up in the sky." "we are a box of crayons
each of us unique,
but when we get together
the picture is complete!" - Shane DeRolf ps. i HATEHATEHATE my new landlord! HOORAY for $5 martini nite! maybe the strike is a good thing. and love for cumberland theatre, downtown days next week. mishy i'll be thinking of and missing u while i'm there. i'm missing the art of time suckage:( |
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The Nominees Are… Vote for Best Picture
Brokeback Mountain
Munich
Good Night, and Good Luck
Capote
Crash Vote for Achievement in Directing
Bennett Miller Capote
Ang Lee Brokeback Mountain
Steven Spielberg Munich
Paul Haggis Crash
George Clooney Good Night, And Good Luck. Vote for Best Actor
Heath Ledger Brokeback Mountain
Joaquin Phoenix Walk the Line
Philip Seymour Hoffman Capote
David Strathairn Good Night, And Good Luck.
Terrence Howard Hustle & Flow Vote for Best Actress
Charlize Theron North Country
Keira Knightley Pride and Prejudice
Felicity Huffman Transamerica
Reese Witherspoon Walk the Line
Judi Dench Mrs. Henderson Presents Vote for Best Supporting Actor
William Hurt A History of Violence
George Clooney Syriana
Matt Dillon Crash
Jake Gyllenhaal Brokeback Mountain
Paul Giamatti Cinderella Man
Vote for Best Supporting Actress
Frances McDormand North Country
Rachel Weisz The Constant Gardener
Amy Adams Junebug
Michelle Williams Brokeback Mountain
Catherine Keener Capote Vote for Best Original Screenplay
Paul Haggis and Robert Moresco Crash
George Clooney and Grant Heslov Good Night, And Good Luck.
Woody Allen Match Point
Noah Baumbach The Squid and the Whale
Stephen Gaghan Syriana
Vote for Best Adapted Screenplay
Larry McMurtry and Diana Ossana Brokeback Mountain
Dan Futterman Capote
Jeffrey Caine The Constant Gardener
Josh Olson A History of Violence
Tony Kushner and Eric Roth Munich
Vote for Achievement in Cinematography
Dion Beebe Memoirs of a Geisha
Emmanuel Lubezki The New World
Wally Pfister Batman Begins
Rodrigo Prieto Brokeback Mountain
Robert Elswit Good Night, And Good Luck.
Vote for Best Film Editing
Mike Hill and Dan Hanley Cinderella Man
Claire Simpson The Constant Gardener
Hughes Winborne Crash
Michael Kahn Munich
Michael McCusker Walk the Line Vote for Best Art Direction
Art Direction: Jim Bissell; Set Decoration: Jan Pascale Good Night, And Good Luck.
Art Direction: Stuart Craig; Set Decoration: Stephenie McMillan Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
Art Direction: Grant Major; Set Decoration: Dan Hennah and Simon Bright King Kong
Art Direction: John Myhre; Set Decoration: Gretchen Rau Memoirs of a Geisha
Art Direction: Sarah Greenwood; Set Decoration: Katie Spencer Pride and Prejudice Vote for Achievement in Costume Design
Colleen Atwood Memoirs of a Geisha
Sandy Powell Mrs. Henderson Presents
Jacqueline Durran Pride and Prejudice
Arianne Phillips Walk the Line
Gabriella Pescucci Charlie & the Chocolate Factory Vote for Achievement in Makeup
Howard Berger and Tami Lane The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe
David Leroy Anderson and Lance Anderson Cinderella Man
Dave Elsey and Nikki Gooley Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith Vote for Best Original Score
John Williams Memoirs of a Geisha
Gustavo Santaolalla Brokeback Mountain
John Williams Munich
Alberto Iglesias The Constant Gardener
Dario Marianelli Pride and Prejudice Vote for Best Original Song
'In the Deep' - Music by Kathleen 'Bird' York and Michael Becker; Lyrics by Kathleen 'Bird' York Crash
'Hard Out Here for a Pimp' - Music & Lyrics by Jordan Houston, Cedric Coleman and Paul Beauregard Hustle & Flow
'Travelin' Thru' - Music & Lyrics by Dolly Parton Transamerica Vote for Achievement in Sound Editing
Mike Hopkins and Ethan Van der Ryn King Kong
Wylie Stateman Memoirs of a Geisha
Richard King War of the Worlds Vote for Achievement in Sound Mixing
Terry Porter, Dean A. Zupancic and Tony Johnson The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe
Christopher Boyes, Michael Semanick, Michael Hedges and Hammond Peek King Kong
Kevin O'Connell, Greg P. Russell, Rick Kline and John Pritchett Memoirs of a Geisha
Paul Massey, D.M. Hemphill and Peter F. Kurland Walk the Line
Andy Nelson, Anna Behlmer and Ronald Judkins War of the Worlds Vote for Best Visual Effects
Dean Wright, Bill Westenhofer, Jim Berney and Scott Farrar The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe
Dennis Muren, Pablo Helman, Randy Dutra and Daniel Sudick War of the Worlds
Joe Letteri, Brian Van't Hul, Christian Rivers and Richard Taylor King Kong Vote for Best Animated Feature Film
Howl's Moving Castle
Tim Burton's Corpse Bride
Wallace & Gromit: The Curse of the Were-Rabbit Vote for Best Animated Short Film
Badgered
The Moon and the Son: An Imagined Conversation
The Mysterious Geographic Explorations of Jasper Morello
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One Man Band Vote for Best Foreign-Language Film
Paradise Now (Palestine)
Joyeux Noel (France)
Tsotsi (South Africa)
Sophie Scholl: The Final Days (Germany)
Don't Tell (Italy) Vote for Best Live-Action Short Film
Ausreisser (The Runaway)
Cashback
The Last Farm
Our Time Is Up
Six Shooter
Vote for Best Documentary Feature
Darwin's Nightmare
Enron: The Smartest Guys in the Room
Murderball
March of the Penguins
Street Fight Vote for Best Documentary Short
The Death of Kevin Carter: Casualty of the Bang Bang Club
God Sleeps in Rwanda
The Mushroom Club
A Note of Triumph: The Golden Age of Norman Corwin my personal vote is a heads up between good night and good luck and brokeback mountain. my fingers are crossed for both. |
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welcome the new year.. Desiderata
by Max Ehrmann
Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there
may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good
terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and
listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their
story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy
your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own
career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing
fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs;for
the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what
virtue
there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life
is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection.Neither be cynical
about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is
perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of
spirit to shield you insudden misfortune. But do not distress
yourselfwith imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigueand
loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars
you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of
life, keep peace with your soul. With all its shams, drudgery,
and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy. |
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But as I've learned with you girls...you will always be here. We'll all go this way and that way and end up in the same place. |
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Paths We used to frequent paths;
Tiptoeing down ravines
Trying not to slip in the sewage below
It was nothing glamorous.
We used to crouch behind bushes
And crowd around a tiny flame
To shelter it from wind or snow or rain
So we could smoke our drugs;
We used to take turns keeping watch
As ever oblivious passer-by
Even old ladies carrying Loblaws bags
Could be an undercover spy.
We used to frequent paths;
The detours that only we knew
That trail to this very point and divide...
And we go our seperate ways. -my very own carrie bradshaw |
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To a Daughter Leaving Home When I taught you
at eight to ride
a bicycle, loping along
beside you
as you wobbled away
on two round wheels,
my own mouth rounding
in surprise when you pulled
ahead down the curved
path of the park,
I kept waiting
for the thud
of your crash as I
sprinted to catch up, while you grew
smaller, more breakable
with distance,
pumping, pumping
for your life, screaming
with laughter,
the hair flapping
behind you like a
handkerchief waving
goodbye. |
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| Freudian Inventory Results | Oral (60%) you appear to have a good balance of independence and interdependence knowing when to accept help and when to do things on your own.
Anal (13%) you appear to be overly lacking in self control and organization, and possibly have a compulsive need to defy authority. If you are too scatterbrained, you will not develop much as a person as you will habitually switch paths before you ever learn anything.
Phallic (50%) you appear to have a good balance of sexual awareness and sexual composure.
Latency (46%) you appear to have a good balance of abstract knowledge seeking and practicality, dealing with real world responsibilities while still cultivating your abstract and creative faculties and interests.
Genital (63%) you appear to have a progressive and openminded outlook on life unbeholden to regressive forces like traditional authority and convention.
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go rent eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! ROCK ON!!!!(tomorrow night) |
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"hold it down," that's what i whispered, "be aware that everything is overheard.." "hold it down" this place gets twisted, and in the heat, it will leave you blissful i think i'm falling all over again 'the beat is running smooth, and everyone is caught up in their own groove, your mind is telling you, now is not the time your mind to leave' |
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i'd just like to thank jacky for belting her little heart out to the beatles, let it be. breakfast at tiffanys, tomorrow. |
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tonight was spent with friends old and new. while drivin me home dave put on hotel california to show me his new stereo and because it's my favourite song. i felt it in my bones. work and play.
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Down with Duff and all her STUPID stuff!!! this is going to be the lamest update ever.
i'm happy in love with my boiee. our one yr was cute. we went to the zoo, and for some reason(despite the fact that i went 2 yrs ago) made me want to cry. all those animals with people tapping on their windows expecting them to be funny and do tricks! i got emotional and so ry said, at least they're not gonna die cause they're here and not out there becoming endangered. but then i said that they're gonna die of boredom, so he said we could become an exhibit to replace them, this made me happy. we stayed at the sutton place hotel(super hott! and super class!) and were treated like royalty and little kids at the same time. we had no mini bar and no payperview, so we just layed around all night with our wake up pills, it was the funest!
um, i love my friends.
i have nothing more.
i warned u of the lameness!
DOWN WITH DUFF AND ALL OF HER STUPID FUCKING STUFF!!! |
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my happiness.. 1 year(whatthefuck!whowouldathunkit) |
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